I thought I'd start occasionally posting 'diary entries,' if you like. I thought this would be a good idea, as it would keep me posting on my blog, as I often forget to post while I'm still midway through my book that I'm reading.
Anyway, first of all, let me tell you a bit about my dream career. Of course, I've always had a passion for reading and writing (thought mostly reading) and so being an author has always seemed most appropriate. Yet, there is something more that I would love to be. A killer whale/dolphin trainer. Now I know that it is wrong to keep whales in captivity, yet once they're in captivity, they will no longer be able to survive in the wild anyway, and so I think it's great that we can learn more about them. Plus they DO build a special bond, whether you want to believe it or not.
So, in our school we have a program called 'Work Experience,' in which you work somewhere you think you may later have a profession in. Therefore, for me, it was the zoo. It is Wednesday, and as part of our program, we were told we would be interacting with dolphins, which of course for me was my absolute dream come true! I KNEW that there would be cleaning, if not hours or scrubbing out buckets, and preparing smelly fish. Yet we were promised there would be interaction, and so I worked my very hardest, along with my friend who is also an aspiring trainer.
I know there will be people perhaps laughing right now at how ridiculous our dream sounds, yet just to put it in to perspective, me and my friend 'train' in the summer in my pool, trying to get better at swimming, and we try our hardest in biology as we feel that is an important area to specialize in if we ever get to have the opportunity to be a trainer. So, as we were working, hours went by, and we looked out the window, longing to just touch the dolphin, while we scrubbed buckets. I thought as every hour went by we were getting closer and closer, and yet, the end of the day came, and no dolphin interaction. I cannot even tell you how crushed I feel. How shattered. Not only did we not get to learn about these amazing creatures, but we didn't get to learn what it takes to be a trainer...
I know this sounds wingy, and pathetic, but I needed to write how I felt, and then maybe when I'm older, I'll look back, hopefully as a trainer, but possibly not, and realize that good things come to those who wait.
I just hate dealing with the disappointment.